Okay, so I don't know how many people read this, or if anyone does for that matter, but to those who do (maybe), it's personal story time. I have been planning and plotting the Lyvenia series since I was seventeen. It started out as an idea that turned into a novel that exploded into a world. WITCH is the origin story of the origin story, and I first created its characters and events back in 2008. Almost everything that has happened so far was supposed to happen all along. In 2011, I decided to tell the story with sims and I put it together to read for my husband. He was my audience of one, and it was a nice way to share a part of myself with him. In the summer of 2012, my husband abandoned me and my child. I learned he was living with another woman. He informed me that he no longer loved me, that he was madly in love with her, and that she was pregnant with his child (she wasn't, she's actually a pathological liar). Since then, we have divorced and I have forgiven him, and we are friends now, but the pain of what I went through last summer still haunts me. During that time, this story became my escape. Even though Lothar was always going to leave Corynne for Ivaine, that part became more real to me than any piece of writing I have ever penned. The eeriest thing was that I learned of my husband's adultery merely a few days after I uploaded Chapter Eight: The Morning After. In the chapters that followed, I related to Corynne so well and I wrote her pain like it was my pain, because essentially it was. I have never understood a character better than her, and she has taught me about myself in ways I might have never imagined. But just like Lothar was always supposed to leave Corynne, likewise, he was always supposed to come back to her. However, this time their "forbidden love" would be something even more taboo. I have been looking forward to writing Chapter Eighteen, but so far it has been the most difficult one for me, and that is why I have not uploaded it sooner. You guys, adultery is a terrible thing. Terrible. I would know. I am curious to see the reactions to Corynne and Lothar's love affair. I try to separate my personal life from the story, but that is difficult when this story has become like my diary. Yes, Lothar's wife is evil, Corynne's husband is selfish, and yes, they are both completely unsatisfied in their marriages... but so was I, and it still hurt like hell to be cheated on. I guess it just goes to show that good guys don't always do good things. Most of my characters tend to be morally ambiguous. Anyway, I've rambled on long enough. Chapter Eighteen will be up and ready when I pull myself together enough to write it, and I truly hope that you enjoy it.
Much love.
Oh god, I am so so sorry to hear about all the pain that you went through! It sounds almost like a soap opera plot but of course it must have been so much more painful. But at least you had something to escape to. As for your ex-husband, if he can do all that to you, then he obviously doesn't deserve you, and you and your child are better off in the long run. I hope you regain some of that happiness back. After all the worst does seem to be over with now.
ReplyDeleteI wish there was some advice I could give you about Chapter Eighteen. The only thing that might help is if you tried NOT to think about the links to your personal life and just lose yourself in the story. It may come easier that way. But again, I'm in no way experienced in that sorta thing.
Hope I'm not being too intrusive by posting here (since I know almost nothing about the author behind the Lyvenia Series!) but I figured you needed some comfort and advice.
Wishing you all the best writing-wise and personal life-wise
Thank you :) I don't find it intrusive at all, actually. And yeah, this story really is like a soap opera. I appreciate the advice. I am going to try to pull myself out of this chapter and just write it as if I were Corynne and not me. The thing is that for a while now, I've been using my own emotions to fuel hers. I just have to change that habit. Music helps ;)
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